How was everyone's weekend?
I decided that the the depression was no longer going to lead my life, so Saturday evening, I took my kids roller skating (for her birthday and she had 22 friends show up) and I decided I would re-live my glory years and put on a pair of skates! And I want it on record that I didnt do that bad! I mean, I did fall once all because the owner (who remembers me from 25 yrs ago when I used to live at the rink every Friday & Saturday night) made a comment to me, I turned around to acknowledge him and BAM.. down I went and now my right knee is swollen and bruised.. LOL but it was fun, other than that I skated and remembered that skating really is a work out!
My kids decided to head to their Aunt & Uncles that night, which was interesting as they havnt been to their house in months... so I ended up having the evening to myself so my good friend and I headed out. I danced, I laughed, I flirted, I got flirted with, told I was gorgeous and beautiful and HOT... that one cracked me up... but it made me realize that Im still me. Im still the same old me, no matter how old I get. Made me feel so much better! Oh..and I got carded..haha.. I guess I still look young...
After the bar, headed home and then decided to do some late night dialing.. bad bad Barney.. but it did turn out well, my beneficial friend showed up.. and we had a rather interesting conversation that I wasnt sure how to respond to.
We were standing in my kitchen... just talking, he was hungry (then again when arnt men hungry) so he was cooking himself something to eat, we were discussing all kinds of things.. from the Seahawks to relationships. He told me happy birthday, then stated that he had another 8 months to enjoy life, then he was going to start getting serious about marriage, that he made himself & his mom a promise that he would be married by the end of his 40th year.
Which brought up the conversation of what he was looking for in his life partner. As the conversation continued, him asking me my views on marriage, me asking him... he started to say something then stopped... said that he couldnt tell me whatever he was about to say..
I asked why not..
his words:
"Because someday you and I may be married and you would hold it over my head!"
HUH?
What?
Uh huh...
Then he proceeds to tell me how much he's missed me, and he's made some bad choices.
And well..then things got really good (wink wink)
The next morning..after I finally rouse him from bed.... oh yeah and the sleeping thing, OMG!!!! I have gotten so used to sleeping alone that Im not used to somone else sleeping right next to me.. and when I say right next to me I mean RIGHT next to me!!!
He had to be touching me.. dont get me wrong.. the occasional cuddle is fine.. but I do NOT like to be confined when I sleep..he had his leg over mine, his arm over me, and his head right on my pillow.. MY pillow.. King size bed people.. there is plenty of room for both of us.. get in your own damn space... I would move, he would move, I would try to move him.. he would pull me with him.. needless to say.. I didnt get much sleep.
So.. were standing in the kitchen, he's making some toast (yep.. hungry again) and he's just talking a mile a minute.. about this and that.. and so forth and so on..
when I look at him and say.. shut up... Im not a morning person.. dont talk to me until Ive had my coffee.. he knows this..
he says.. yeah.. Im talking alot.. this just means that Im really comfortable with you. Were gonna do well together.. this coming from someone I thought had an understanding of what we ment to each other.. and he kept telling me he missed me. Hey, buddy Ive been right here...
so I guess this just makes me sit back and realize that I dont know what I want..
what is it I want? Guess I better figure that out!!!
But what does any of THAT mean?
Men... they are so hard to understand... or am I putting to much thought into it?
Monday, October 15, 2007
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Rain Clouds
Yesterday my baby turned 11
My baby.. is no longer a baby...
Maybe it wasnt me turning 35 that Im taking so hard, it's my baby no longer being a baby that is causing distress.
My nose is barely above water. Im slowly drowning in circumstances that Im trying to control.
Between all the bills, and everything that the kids need and my job and my family. I can barely keep my nose above water.
I feel like just curling up.. is it depression?
What I feel like doing and what Im actually going to do, are two seperate things..
I am so mad at myself for allowing myself to wallow in this self pity.
It just disgust's me that Ive allowed things to get as far as they have.
But everytime I turn around someone needs something, or something needs to be fixed.
Or it's just SOMETHING!!!!
Im taking it day by day. But, Ive never dealt with depression before so this is something totally and completly new for me. It really pisses me off that Im at this stage in my life. Then again it really pisses me off that Im not at the stage that I think I should be in my life.
Oh well.. a new day, a new dawn
New things..
I just need to stay positive.. positive that all will work out, positive that everything will turn out and positive that Im healthy, my kids are healthy, my family is healthy and that ya'll are healthy too.
Peace
My baby.. is no longer a baby...
Maybe it wasnt me turning 35 that Im taking so hard, it's my baby no longer being a baby that is causing distress.
My nose is barely above water. Im slowly drowning in circumstances that Im trying to control.
Between all the bills, and everything that the kids need and my job and my family. I can barely keep my nose above water.
I feel like just curling up.. is it depression?
What I feel like doing and what Im actually going to do, are two seperate things..
I am so mad at myself for allowing myself to wallow in this self pity.
It just disgust's me that Ive allowed things to get as far as they have.
But everytime I turn around someone needs something, or something needs to be fixed.
Or it's just SOMETHING!!!!
Im taking it day by day. But, Ive never dealt with depression before so this is something totally and completly new for me. It really pisses me off that Im at this stage in my life. Then again it really pisses me off that Im not at the stage that I think I should be in my life.
Oh well.. a new day, a new dawn
New things..
I just need to stay positive.. positive that all will work out, positive that everything will turn out and positive that Im healthy, my kids are healthy, my family is healthy and that ya'll are healthy too.
Peace
Friday, October 05, 2007
From Strength
In a few days I will find myself another year older.
Another year that has passed by me with out accomplishing what I wanted to set out to accomplish. Which in turn brings up the question, what did I want to accomplish by this age?
I was handed a 2 year college scholarship when I was 18. Paid in full, ready for my taking by an anonymous donor. A free ride.. and I fucked it away. I did go to college, for maybe a yr and half. But I was still in my drug induced state and I didn't maintain the grades that I should of, or followed any of the advice of my professors. I was more interested in where my next high was coming from. I wasted a huge opportunity.
I had children young, my first child was born just after I turned 21.. my second just days after my 24th. Yes, I had left the drug scene.. but I had no interest in pursuing my education. In a sense I was dead in side, I was working a job that I felt would take me all the way.
I floundered.. between being a Mother and trying to work. I didn't have a career.. I was a high school dropout, who obtained her GED, had less than 2 yrs of college under her belt, a recovering drug addict and who was stuck in a relationship that would result in me finally standing on my two feet with two young children looking solely to me for wisdom, encouragement, guidance, understanding and love.
How does a women, at such a young age, determine how to pass so many things on to her children when she cant even understand what her sole purpose is. I was a mother first. But, how could I love unconditionally when at times I hated myself? How could I pass on understanding and sympathy to my children when I was so full of hate? How can I teach my children any of the fundamentals of surviving when I wasn't even sure how to survive myself? I found myself at the age of 25, alone, raising children in a place that I had no friends, no family. No one to lean on in my own dispare. He was there, but he wasn't there, I withdrew into myself trying to find all the answers to questions I couldn't even ask myself.
I did find my own footing...after being so lost for so many years.. I finally found myself. I found out that I could stand alone, that I did know the questions but most importantly I found the answers that worked for me. I was able to listen to my inner self and judge what was right and wrong. To teach my children that it was OK to be scared. To stand up for what is right and what you believe in. To never back down and in no way were you allowed to let someone else choose for you what your path is. I found in myself the strength that I had lost.
I'm verging on my 35th birthday. I have not accomplished all that I thought I wanted to. But every day is a new dawn. Everyday I grow stronger. Everyday I teach my children a little more about strength, love, understanding, compassion, sympathy and all that is important to move forward into a unknown future.
No, I have not accomplished my dreams, but with out dreams what is the point of living? If you have achieved all your dreams, does that mean then that you are on deaths door? With out your dreams what will tomorrow bring?
My dreams are far from over. They will continue on thru my children when I finally do leave this world. But, until then I have my own dreams to complete.
My dream is to continue.
My dream is be....
My dream will not end
My dream is looking into the eyes of my children
We all have dreams..
Live them!!!!!
Another year that has passed by me with out accomplishing what I wanted to set out to accomplish. Which in turn brings up the question, what did I want to accomplish by this age?
I was handed a 2 year college scholarship when I was 18. Paid in full, ready for my taking by an anonymous donor. A free ride.. and I fucked it away. I did go to college, for maybe a yr and half. But I was still in my drug induced state and I didn't maintain the grades that I should of, or followed any of the advice of my professors. I was more interested in where my next high was coming from. I wasted a huge opportunity.
I had children young, my first child was born just after I turned 21.. my second just days after my 24th. Yes, I had left the drug scene.. but I had no interest in pursuing my education. In a sense I was dead in side, I was working a job that I felt would take me all the way.
I floundered.. between being a Mother and trying to work. I didn't have a career.. I was a high school dropout, who obtained her GED, had less than 2 yrs of college under her belt, a recovering drug addict and who was stuck in a relationship that would result in me finally standing on my two feet with two young children looking solely to me for wisdom, encouragement, guidance, understanding and love.
How does a women, at such a young age, determine how to pass so many things on to her children when she cant even understand what her sole purpose is. I was a mother first. But, how could I love unconditionally when at times I hated myself? How could I pass on understanding and sympathy to my children when I was so full of hate? How can I teach my children any of the fundamentals of surviving when I wasn't even sure how to survive myself? I found myself at the age of 25, alone, raising children in a place that I had no friends, no family. No one to lean on in my own dispare. He was there, but he wasn't there, I withdrew into myself trying to find all the answers to questions I couldn't even ask myself.
I did find my own footing...after being so lost for so many years.. I finally found myself. I found out that I could stand alone, that I did know the questions but most importantly I found the answers that worked for me. I was able to listen to my inner self and judge what was right and wrong. To teach my children that it was OK to be scared. To stand up for what is right and what you believe in. To never back down and in no way were you allowed to let someone else choose for you what your path is. I found in myself the strength that I had lost.
I'm verging on my 35th birthday. I have not accomplished all that I thought I wanted to. But every day is a new dawn. Everyday I grow stronger. Everyday I teach my children a little more about strength, love, understanding, compassion, sympathy and all that is important to move forward into a unknown future.
No, I have not accomplished my dreams, but with out dreams what is the point of living? If you have achieved all your dreams, does that mean then that you are on deaths door? With out your dreams what will tomorrow bring?
My dreams are far from over. They will continue on thru my children when I finally do leave this world. But, until then I have my own dreams to complete.
My dream is to continue.
My dream is be....
My dream will not end
My dream is looking into the eyes of my children
We all have dreams..
Live them!!!!!
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Freedom at last!!!
Still nothing new to post..
Life is chugging along at a snails pace.
Current mood is: irritable.. restless...bitchy... I can feel it clawing at the surface, wanting freedom but I'm not allowing it to escape. It's a fine line between words that cut and fists that hurt but I'm holding my own. And I will WIN!!!
The ex is all over me like white on rice, and Ive had enough, so I did allow my venomous words attack him. When ever his life is not going well, he calls me whining about how "fucked" he is.
Like I care. He always does this while I'm at work, because he knows I will not react while I'm sitting at my desk. Well.. yesterday he caught me while a number of things were going on.
1) I'm sick.. I feel like shit, and I'm running a fever, but I cant take time off work..
2) I ache.. due to being sick
3) He is an asshat!!!
So.. I let loose, and my poor co-workers had to listen to me say things that only he should of heard such as:
"Your 37 yrs old, its time for you to put your big boy undies on and grow up. Stop harassing me and laying all the blame at my feet, I'm done.. no you may not stay with me for the next month. It's NOT an option, as I don't wish for you to step foot in MY home. Where I pay the bills, clean, sleep and eat. I have NO desire to be around you, see you, let alone talk to you. I'm D O N E!!!
You are the one who made all the decisions to raise your voice and fist's to me all those years ago, I am no longer the weak women that I once was. You want to threaten me, go right ahead... you can do it while you sit in a 10x10 cell behind locked bars.
Because as Ive said.. I'M DONE! "
I proceeded to hang up. I sat at my desk just seething.. and the room was so quiet, that I thought maybe, just maybe everyone had gotten up and left.. you could of heard a pin drop! Oh no. not that lucky, all the sudden I hear.. "Way to go" "good for you" and other words of congratulations and what nots... I guess I wanted my voice to be heard!
He called and left me a voice mail here at work last night, blaming his life and all his mistakes on me. His transgressions are all my fault. Him being a worthless piece of human flesh, my fault. Him not being able to maintain a steady job due to his lack of commitment, my fault. Him not being able to maintain a relationship between any of his kids (he's got 4 all different mothers) my fault. Yes, you guessed it... everything is my fault.
It's a tough burden to carry on ones' shoulders. The ill will of someone else, all their faults, their life being a sorry state of repair, and for the longest time his little poor me attitude used to get to me and I would carry it all around.
But I'm hear to say.. NO MORE!! I'M DONE!!! I'M FREE!!!
I will NOT be the one to carry around his guilt and his failure at being a productive member of society!
Im F R E E !!!!
Life is chugging along at a snails pace.
Current mood is: irritable.. restless...bitchy... I can feel it clawing at the surface, wanting freedom but I'm not allowing it to escape. It's a fine line between words that cut and fists that hurt but I'm holding my own. And I will WIN!!!
The ex is all over me like white on rice, and Ive had enough, so I did allow my venomous words attack him. When ever his life is not going well, he calls me whining about how "fucked" he is.
Like I care. He always does this while I'm at work, because he knows I will not react while I'm sitting at my desk. Well.. yesterday he caught me while a number of things were going on.
1) I'm sick.. I feel like shit, and I'm running a fever, but I cant take time off work..
2) I ache.. due to being sick
3) He is an asshat!!!
So.. I let loose, and my poor co-workers had to listen to me say things that only he should of heard such as:
"Your 37 yrs old, its time for you to put your big boy undies on and grow up. Stop harassing me and laying all the blame at my feet, I'm done.. no you may not stay with me for the next month. It's NOT an option, as I don't wish for you to step foot in MY home. Where I pay the bills, clean, sleep and eat. I have NO desire to be around you, see you, let alone talk to you. I'm D O N E!!!
You are the one who made all the decisions to raise your voice and fist's to me all those years ago, I am no longer the weak women that I once was. You want to threaten me, go right ahead... you can do it while you sit in a 10x10 cell behind locked bars.
Because as Ive said.. I'M DONE! "
I proceeded to hang up. I sat at my desk just seething.. and the room was so quiet, that I thought maybe, just maybe everyone had gotten up and left.. you could of heard a pin drop! Oh no. not that lucky, all the sudden I hear.. "Way to go" "good for you" and other words of congratulations and what nots... I guess I wanted my voice to be heard!
He called and left me a voice mail here at work last night, blaming his life and all his mistakes on me. His transgressions are all my fault. Him being a worthless piece of human flesh, my fault. Him not being able to maintain a steady job due to his lack of commitment, my fault. Him not being able to maintain a relationship between any of his kids (he's got 4 all different mothers) my fault. Yes, you guessed it... everything is my fault.
It's a tough burden to carry on ones' shoulders. The ill will of someone else, all their faults, their life being a sorry state of repair, and for the longest time his little poor me attitude used to get to me and I would carry it all around.
But I'm hear to say.. NO MORE!! I'M DONE!!! I'M FREE!!!
I will NOT be the one to carry around his guilt and his failure at being a productive member of society!
Im F R E E !!!!
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Tuesday nada
My last two post's have been random numbness entries..
because I have had nothing really to write about.. nothing to enlighten any of you
nothing to entertain you.. and sadly I still have nothing.
Although I do have some things on my mind.. Im not sure how to write what Im currently thinking about... how to form it all into words.. and coherant thoughts.
So.. if this post loses you. Im truly sorry.. but here goes.
Schools in, and Im busy..
with that being said.. Im also exhausted.
Where is the me time?
Ive lost me along the way.
Who am I?
What is my current goals in life?
Where is my enjoyment?
What is my enjoyment?
I just feel so lost!!!!
Life is good.. I mean I have my family & my health. I finally got all moved and me and the kids are good.
But.. who am I? Do you ever feel like you have lost a piece of you and w/out it you just cant seem to get motivated? To figure out what is missing, like it's an internal piece of your inner going ons? This piece of me that's missing, is it what keeps me going forward? Or because whatever is missing, is what is keeping me from moving forward? Because I just feel like I could curl up somewhere and just sleep.. for long long hours...days upon days..
Is it depression? And if so.. what do I have to be depressed about? I have the main concerns in life.. kids welfare, health blah blah blah...
home life.. bills.. blah blah blah.. other than that, nothing is out of sorts..
So whats my deal?
I just want to close my eyes.. and sleep..
Thought change:
An old friend of mine from days gone past contacted me. It was great to hear his voice and to catch up with him. He and I actually became friends because he married one of my good friends, but something happened, and like so many friendships.. it went wayside.. I would call.. talk to him, but she just all the sudden didnt want anything to do with me.. not sure why.. we live 6 hrs from each other, so our only communication was via phone.
Fast forward 3 yrs w/out a word from anyone, and he calls me outta the blue.. I guess they ended up divorcing (really sad, as they were a great couple) and he was headed to the Seattle area (Im outside Seattle) and wanted to meet up.
Well I wasnt in town that weekend, so we didnt get o meet up, but we have chatted on the phone and it was just great to re-connect with him. But I think I figured out what the deal was with his soon to be ex. Over the course of their relationship, he and I formed a strong bond ( I have always gotten along better w/men than woman anyway) and I did take his side in a few arguments that they had (this was back when they first got together and we all still lived in the same town) but damn it.. she was in the wrong and I did try to get her to see that.
Once I moved out of that state and headed back home.. I would call and he and I would just sit on the phone and chat and chat and chat. She was always to busy to talk to me, or wasnt home or whatever.. and her and my friendship dwindled to a nothingness existance.
But I think she may of thought that he and I ended up becoming more than friends? But how could that be possible? We never were.. I would never cross that line with a friend. NEVER....
hmmm.. it saddens me that they are no longer together, there are 3 children involved.. none together.. but he has 2 and she had 1. He did come w/his fair share of baggage into the relationship.. then again.. she had her fair share too..
Maybe it just wasnt ment to be.. the marriage for them..and our friendship too.. just makes me shake my head in wonderment..so many questions.. but no answers.
Thought change:
Lordy.. I dont feel well.. kind of feel like Im in some kind of fog world.
oh oh oh.. OMG.. I found a wolf spider crawling across my bathroom floor the other night.. that sucker was HUGE!!! I HATE spiders.. hate them, hate them, hate them.. this guy was so freaking big I about crawled out of my skin.. took everything I had not to scream like a little she-bitch.. cuz it was the middle of the night.. so yeah.. I had to scoop it up w/a wad of kleenex and flush him down the potty.. now my biggest fear is, it's gonna crawl back up the pipe and into my ass some night when I get up to pee.... (oh that thought had me clenching my butt cheeks together)
Ok.. well.. Im done.. there's more.. but Im sure ya'll dont have any wish to read what I have to say..
and if you made it this far.. word of advice.. dont kill spiders..
10 more come back in the dead one's place!!!
Peace
because I have had nothing really to write about.. nothing to enlighten any of you
nothing to entertain you.. and sadly I still have nothing.
Although I do have some things on my mind.. Im not sure how to write what Im currently thinking about... how to form it all into words.. and coherant thoughts.
So.. if this post loses you. Im truly sorry.. but here goes.
Schools in, and Im busy..
with that being said.. Im also exhausted.
Where is the me time?
Ive lost me along the way.
Who am I?
What is my current goals in life?
Where is my enjoyment?
What is my enjoyment?
I just feel so lost!!!!
Life is good.. I mean I have my family & my health. I finally got all moved and me and the kids are good.
But.. who am I? Do you ever feel like you have lost a piece of you and w/out it you just cant seem to get motivated? To figure out what is missing, like it's an internal piece of your inner going ons? This piece of me that's missing, is it what keeps me going forward? Or because whatever is missing, is what is keeping me from moving forward? Because I just feel like I could curl up somewhere and just sleep.. for long long hours...days upon days..
Is it depression? And if so.. what do I have to be depressed about? I have the main concerns in life.. kids welfare, health blah blah blah...
home life.. bills.. blah blah blah.. other than that, nothing is out of sorts..
So whats my deal?
I just want to close my eyes.. and sleep..
Thought change:
An old friend of mine from days gone past contacted me. It was great to hear his voice and to catch up with him. He and I actually became friends because he married one of my good friends, but something happened, and like so many friendships.. it went wayside.. I would call.. talk to him, but she just all the sudden didnt want anything to do with me.. not sure why.. we live 6 hrs from each other, so our only communication was via phone.
Fast forward 3 yrs w/out a word from anyone, and he calls me outta the blue.. I guess they ended up divorcing (really sad, as they were a great couple) and he was headed to the Seattle area (Im outside Seattle) and wanted to meet up.
Well I wasnt in town that weekend, so we didnt get o meet up, but we have chatted on the phone and it was just great to re-connect with him. But I think I figured out what the deal was with his soon to be ex. Over the course of their relationship, he and I formed a strong bond ( I have always gotten along better w/men than woman anyway) and I did take his side in a few arguments that they had (this was back when they first got together and we all still lived in the same town) but damn it.. she was in the wrong and I did try to get her to see that.
Once I moved out of that state and headed back home.. I would call and he and I would just sit on the phone and chat and chat and chat. She was always to busy to talk to me, or wasnt home or whatever.. and her and my friendship dwindled to a nothingness existance.
But I think she may of thought that he and I ended up becoming more than friends? But how could that be possible? We never were.. I would never cross that line with a friend. NEVER....
hmmm.. it saddens me that they are no longer together, there are 3 children involved.. none together.. but he has 2 and she had 1. He did come w/his fair share of baggage into the relationship.. then again.. she had her fair share too..
Maybe it just wasnt ment to be.. the marriage for them..and our friendship too.. just makes me shake my head in wonderment..so many questions.. but no answers.
Thought change:
Lordy.. I dont feel well.. kind of feel like Im in some kind of fog world.
oh oh oh.. OMG.. I found a wolf spider crawling across my bathroom floor the other night.. that sucker was HUGE!!! I HATE spiders.. hate them, hate them, hate them.. this guy was so freaking big I about crawled out of my skin.. took everything I had not to scream like a little she-bitch.. cuz it was the middle of the night.. so yeah.. I had to scoop it up w/a wad of kleenex and flush him down the potty.. now my biggest fear is, it's gonna crawl back up the pipe and into my ass some night when I get up to pee.... (oh that thought had me clenching my butt cheeks together)
Ok.. well.. Im done.. there's more.. but Im sure ya'll dont have any wish to read what I have to say..
and if you made it this far.. word of advice.. dont kill spiders..
10 more come back in the dead one's place!!!
Peace
Monday, September 17, 2007
Pacific Northwest
You know you're from the Pacific Northwest When... (According To Jeff Foxworthy)
1. You know the state flower (Mildew).
2. You feel guilty throwing aluminum cans or paper in the trash.
3. Use the statement "sun break" and know what it means
4. You know more than 10 ways to order coffee.
5. You know more people who own boats rather than air conditioners.
6. You feel overdressed wearing a suit to a nice restaurant.
7. You stand on a deserted corner in the rain waiting for the "Walk"Signal.
8. You consider that if it has no snow or has not recently erupted, it >is not a real mountain.
9. You can taste the difference between Starbucks, Seattle's Best, and Veneto's.
10. You know the difference between Chinook, Coho and Sockeye salmon.
11. You know how to pronounce Sequim, Puyallup, Issaquah, Oregon,Yakima and Willamette.
12. You consider swimming an indoor sport
13. You can tell the difference between Japanese, Chinese and Thai food.
14. In winter, you go to work in the dark and come home in the dark-while only working eight-hour days.
15. You never go camping without waterproof matches and a poncho.
16. You are not fazed by "Today's forecast: showers followed by rain," and "Tomorrow's forecast: rain followed by showers."
17. You have no concept of humidity without precipitation.
18. You know that Boring is a town in Oregon and not just a state of mind.
19. You can point to at least two volcanoes, even if you cannot seethrough the cloud cover.
20. You notice, "The mountain is out" when it is a pretty day and you can actually see it.
21. You put on your shorts when the temperature gets above 50, but still wear your hiking boots and parka
22. You switch to your sandals when it gets about 60, but keep the socks on.
23. You have actually used your mountain bike on a mountain.
24. You think people who use umbrellas are either wimps or tourists.
25. You buy new sunglasses every year, because you cannot find the old ones after such a long time.
26. You measure distance in hours.
27. You often switch from "heat" to "a/c" in the same day.
28. You design your kid's Halloween costume to fit under a raincoat.
29. You know all the important seasons: Almost Winter, Winter, StillRaining (Spring), Road Construction (Summer), Deer & Elk season (Fall).
30. You actually understood these jokes and will probably forward them (well Im not forwarding them.. however.. I am definently from the Pacific Northwest!!!)
Peace!!!!
1. You know the state flower (Mildew).
2. You feel guilty throwing aluminum cans or paper in the trash.
3. Use the statement "sun break" and know what it means
4. You know more than 10 ways to order coffee.
5. You know more people who own boats rather than air conditioners.
6. You feel overdressed wearing a suit to a nice restaurant.
7. You stand on a deserted corner in the rain waiting for the "Walk"Signal.
8. You consider that if it has no snow or has not recently erupted, it >is not a real mountain.
9. You can taste the difference between Starbucks, Seattle's Best, and Veneto's.
10. You know the difference between Chinook, Coho and Sockeye salmon.
11. You know how to pronounce Sequim, Puyallup, Issaquah, Oregon,Yakima and Willamette.
12. You consider swimming an indoor sport
13. You can tell the difference between Japanese, Chinese and Thai food.
14. In winter, you go to work in the dark and come home in the dark-while only working eight-hour days.
15. You never go camping without waterproof matches and a poncho.
16. You are not fazed by "Today's forecast: showers followed by rain," and "Tomorrow's forecast: rain followed by showers."
17. You have no concept of humidity without precipitation.
18. You know that Boring is a town in Oregon and not just a state of mind.
19. You can point to at least two volcanoes, even if you cannot seethrough the cloud cover.
20. You notice, "The mountain is out" when it is a pretty day and you can actually see it.
21. You put on your shorts when the temperature gets above 50, but still wear your hiking boots and parka
22. You switch to your sandals when it gets about 60, but keep the socks on.
23. You have actually used your mountain bike on a mountain.
24. You think people who use umbrellas are either wimps or tourists.
25. You buy new sunglasses every year, because you cannot find the old ones after such a long time.
26. You measure distance in hours.
27. You often switch from "heat" to "a/c" in the same day.
28. You design your kid's Halloween costume to fit under a raincoat.
29. You know all the important seasons: Almost Winter, Winter, StillRaining (Spring), Road Construction (Summer), Deer & Elk season (Fall).
30. You actually understood these jokes and will probably forward them (well Im not forwarding them.. however.. I am definently from the Pacific Northwest!!!)
Peace!!!!
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Sex & Calories
CALORIES BURNED DURING SEX!
REMOVING HER CLOTHES:
With her consent
12 Calories
Without her consent
2,187 Calories
OPENING HER BRA:
With both hands
8 Calories
With one hand
12 Calories
With your teeth
485 Calories
PUTTING ON A CONDOM:
With an erection
6 Calories
Without an erection
3,315 Calories
POSITIONS:
Missionary
12 Calories
69 lying down
78 Calories
69 standing up
812 Calories
Wheelbarrow
216 Calories
Doggy Style
326 Calories
Italian chandelier
2,912 Calories
ORGASMS:
Real
112 Calories
Fake
1,315 Calories
POST ORGASM:
Lying in bed hugging
18 Calories
Getting up immediately
36 Calories
Explaining why you got out of bed immediately
816 Calories
GETTING A SECOND ERECTION:
If you are:
20-29 years
36 Calories
30-39 years
80 Calories
40-49 years
124 Calories
50-59 years
1,972 Calories
60-69 years
7,916 Calories
70 and over
Results are still pending
DRESSING AFTERWARDS:
Calmly..
32 Calories
In a hurry
98 Calories
With her father knocking at the door
5,218 Calories
With your wife knocking at the door
13,521 Calories
Results may vary!
THERE'S A LOT OF SADNESS IN THE WORLD
Right now, as you read this,
69 Million Americans are having SEX!
And you're on the computer!!!
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
9/11
R.I.P
You will not be forgotten
To all those who lost their lives..
To all those who risked their lives...
You will forever be with in my heart
And with in the hearts of many others.
Peace!
I recieved the following via email from my mother...
I am a supporter of our soldiers.. the men & women who give up their lives daily for our Freedom...
"Are we fighting a war on terror or aren't we? Was it or was it not started by Islamic people who brought it to our shores on September 11, 2001?
Were people from all over the world, mostly Americans, not brutally murdered that day, in downtown Manhattan , across the Potomac from our nation's capitol and in a field in Pennsylvania?
Did nearly three thousand men, women and children die a horrible, burning or crushing death that day, or didn't they?
And I'm supposed to care that a copy of the Koran was "desecrated" when an overworked American soldier kicked it or got it wet?...Well, I don't. I don't care at all.
I'll start caring when Osama bin Laden turns himself in and repents for incinerating all those innocent people on 9/11.
I'll care about the Koran when the fanatics in the Middle East start caring about the Holy Bible, the mere possession of which is a crime in Saudi Arabia .
I'll care when these thugs tell the world they are sorry for hacking off Nick Berg's head while Berg screamed through his gurgling slashed throat.
I'll care when the cowardly so-called "insurgents" in Iraq come out and fight like men instead of disrespecting their own religion by hiding in mosques.
I'll care when the mindless zealots who blow themselves up in search of nirvana care about the innocent children within range of their suicide bombs.
I'll care when the American media stops pretending that their First Amendment liberties are somehow derived from international law instead of the United States Constitution's Bill of Rights.
In the meantime, when I hear a story about a brave marine roughing up an Iraqi terrorist to obtain information, know this: I don't care.
When I see a fuzzy photo of a pile of naked Iraqi prisoners who have been humiliated in what amounts to a college-hazing incident, rest assured: I don't care.
When I see a wounded terrorist get shot in the head when he is told not to move because he might be booby-trapped, you can take it to the bank: I don't care.
When I hear that a prisoner, who was issued a Koran and a prayer mat, and fed "special" food that is paid for by my tax dollars, is complaining that his holy book is being "mishandled," you can absolutely believe in your heart of hearts: I don't care.
And oh, by the way, I've noticed that sometimes it's spelled "Koran" and other times "Quran." Well, Jimmy Crack Corn and-you guessed it-I don't care !!
"Some people spend an entire lifetime wondering if they made a difference in the world. But, the Marines don't have that problem" -- Ronald Reagan
I have another quote that I would like to add.......
"If we ever forget that we're One Nation Under God, then we will be a nation gone under." Also by.. Ronald Reagan
One last thought for the day:
In case we find ourselves starting to believe all the Anti-American sentiment and negativity, we should remember England 's Prime Minister Tony Blair's words during a recent interview. When asked by one of his Parliament members why he believes so much in America, he said: "A simple way to take measure of a country is to look at how many want in.. And how many want out."
Only two defining forces have ever offered to die for you: 1. Jesus Christ 2. The American G. I.
One died for your soul, the other for your freedom.
You will not be forgotten
To all those who lost their lives..
To all those who risked their lives...
You will forever be with in my heart
And with in the hearts of many others.
Peace!
I recieved the following via email from my mother...
I am a supporter of our soldiers.. the men & women who give up their lives daily for our Freedom...
"Are we fighting a war on terror or aren't we? Was it or was it not started by Islamic people who brought it to our shores on September 11, 2001?
Were people from all over the world, mostly Americans, not brutally murdered that day, in downtown Manhattan , across the Potomac from our nation's capitol and in a field in Pennsylvania?
Did nearly three thousand men, women and children die a horrible, burning or crushing death that day, or didn't they?
And I'm supposed to care that a copy of the Koran was "desecrated" when an overworked American soldier kicked it or got it wet?...Well, I don't. I don't care at all.
I'll start caring when Osama bin Laden turns himself in and repents for incinerating all those innocent people on 9/11.
I'll care about the Koran when the fanatics in the Middle East start caring about the Holy Bible, the mere possession of which is a crime in Saudi Arabia .
I'll care when these thugs tell the world they are sorry for hacking off Nick Berg's head while Berg screamed through his gurgling slashed throat.
I'll care when the cowardly so-called "insurgents" in Iraq come out and fight like men instead of disrespecting their own religion by hiding in mosques.
I'll care when the mindless zealots who blow themselves up in search of nirvana care about the innocent children within range of their suicide bombs.
I'll care when the American media stops pretending that their First Amendment liberties are somehow derived from international law instead of the United States Constitution's Bill of Rights.
In the meantime, when I hear a story about a brave marine roughing up an Iraqi terrorist to obtain information, know this: I don't care.
When I see a fuzzy photo of a pile of naked Iraqi prisoners who have been humiliated in what amounts to a college-hazing incident, rest assured: I don't care.
When I see a wounded terrorist get shot in the head when he is told not to move because he might be booby-trapped, you can take it to the bank: I don't care.
When I hear that a prisoner, who was issued a Koran and a prayer mat, and fed "special" food that is paid for by my tax dollars, is complaining that his holy book is being "mishandled," you can absolutely believe in your heart of hearts: I don't care.
And oh, by the way, I've noticed that sometimes it's spelled "Koran" and other times "Quran." Well, Jimmy Crack Corn and-you guessed it-I don't care !!
"Some people spend an entire lifetime wondering if they made a difference in the world. But, the Marines don't have that problem" -- Ronald Reagan
I have another quote that I would like to add.......
"If we ever forget that we're One Nation Under God, then we will be a nation gone under." Also by.. Ronald Reagan
One last thought for the day:
In case we find ourselves starting to believe all the Anti-American sentiment and negativity, we should remember England 's Prime Minister Tony Blair's words during a recent interview. When asked by one of his Parliament members why he believes so much in America, he said: "A simple way to take measure of a country is to look at how many want in.. And how many want out."
Only two defining forces have ever offered to die for you: 1. Jesus Christ 2. The American G. I.
One died for your soul, the other for your freedom.
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
This & That.. TMI
Long weekends are great, the sucky part is the getting up and coming back to work piece.
But on the happy side of that, is Im off the rest of the week, heading down to Oregon to finish the meat head up, and get him to Eukunuba... cross your fingers and toes.. that this will get him the needed points, cuz Im gettin tired!!!
Other than that, my weekend consisted of nothing.. nada, zip, zilch, zero. It was freaking awesome!!!
But, alas Im tired again, is it cuz Im stuck at work?
We had some awesome thunder & lightening last night, I love love love good thunder storms.. I opened the blinds, turned off all the sound & lights and just layed in bed watching the show out the window. Beautiful!
Ok.. TMI Tuesday.. here ya go
1. What did you eat for dinner yesterday?
Um, dinner well, my son wanted to make dinner so I let him, he ground up some hamburger, made some mashed potatoes.. mixed them together, and threw on some shredded cheese.. yep.. I call it, Wonder Mutt suprise... it was eatable..
2. How much cash is in your purse/wallet right now?
LOL.. I dont carry cash.. I spend it to quickly.. my last $6 was spent last night when the girl child hijacked it to pay for the ice cream truck....
3. What have you done to avoid being flirted with by someone you didn't like?
I tell them to go away.. seriously.. just stop talking, turn around, and go away... not interested, Im not gonna change my mind.. so shut up..and go away.. if they still dont hear me.. I just will walk away...
4. Do you believe the theory "Once a cheater always a cheater"?
hmmmm...this is a hard question.. I mean.. some people just have made some really bad choices, and thought what they were doing was in their best interest, come to find out it all blew up in their face and they learned a really rough/tough life lesson and realized that it's not good to be the cheater... then again.. some have made the choice to do so, and continue doing so, something about the thrill I suppose.. but.. a leopard doesnt change his spots, he just rearranges them.. is a pretty true statement. I mean, if they have never been caught they figure they can continue to do so, and dont care about other peoples feelings, they only seem to care about their own gratification. Did I answer the question?
5. Describe your sex life in two words.
Right now, my sex life is between me and Bob.. (battery operated boyfriend)
I turn him on when I want
Off when I want
I tell him what to do, when to do it, how to do it, where to do it
As long as I want, or as quick as I want...
But.. it does get a little old after a while.. sometimes, and it's few and far between, I miss having that someone next to me in bed.. but.. then I end up fighting over blankets and pillows, and listening to someone else snore, or their feet touching me..
ok ok ok.. like I said.. it's few and far between I have those moments of missing someone...
Bonus (as in optional): Would you/have you ever paid money for sex?
LOL.. no.. I get sex for free..
however when I was living w/family.. my beneficial friend and I used to take turns on who was paying for the hotel room.. I used to joke with him when it was my turn to pay that I was paying for sex... and therefor, I better get my money's worth..LOL..
the answer is Yes.. I would get my money's worth...LMAO!!!!
Peace everyone!!!!
But on the happy side of that, is Im off the rest of the week, heading down to Oregon to finish the meat head up, and get him to Eukunuba... cross your fingers and toes.. that this will get him the needed points, cuz Im gettin tired!!!
Other than that, my weekend consisted of nothing.. nada, zip, zilch, zero. It was freaking awesome!!!
But, alas Im tired again, is it cuz Im stuck at work?
We had some awesome thunder & lightening last night, I love love love good thunder storms.. I opened the blinds, turned off all the sound & lights and just layed in bed watching the show out the window. Beautiful!
Ok.. TMI Tuesday.. here ya go
1. What did you eat for dinner yesterday?
Um, dinner well, my son wanted to make dinner so I let him, he ground up some hamburger, made some mashed potatoes.. mixed them together, and threw on some shredded cheese.. yep.. I call it, Wonder Mutt suprise... it was eatable..
2. How much cash is in your purse/wallet right now?
LOL.. I dont carry cash.. I spend it to quickly.. my last $6 was spent last night when the girl child hijacked it to pay for the ice cream truck....
3. What have you done to avoid being flirted with by someone you didn't like?
I tell them to go away.. seriously.. just stop talking, turn around, and go away... not interested, Im not gonna change my mind.. so shut up..and go away.. if they still dont hear me.. I just will walk away...
4. Do you believe the theory "Once a cheater always a cheater"?
hmmmm...this is a hard question.. I mean.. some people just have made some really bad choices, and thought what they were doing was in their best interest, come to find out it all blew up in their face and they learned a really rough/tough life lesson and realized that it's not good to be the cheater... then again.. some have made the choice to do so, and continue doing so, something about the thrill I suppose.. but.. a leopard doesnt change his spots, he just rearranges them.. is a pretty true statement. I mean, if they have never been caught they figure they can continue to do so, and dont care about other peoples feelings, they only seem to care about their own gratification. Did I answer the question?
5. Describe your sex life in two words.
Right now, my sex life is between me and Bob.. (battery operated boyfriend)
I turn him on when I want
Off when I want
I tell him what to do, when to do it, how to do it, where to do it
As long as I want, or as quick as I want...
But.. it does get a little old after a while.. sometimes, and it's few and far between, I miss having that someone next to me in bed.. but.. then I end up fighting over blankets and pillows, and listening to someone else snore, or their feet touching me..
ok ok ok.. like I said.. it's few and far between I have those moments of missing someone...
Bonus (as in optional): Would you/have you ever paid money for sex?
LOL.. no.. I get sex for free..
however when I was living w/family.. my beneficial friend and I used to take turns on who was paying for the hotel room.. I used to joke with him when it was my turn to pay that I was paying for sex... and therefor, I better get my money's worth..LOL..
the answer is Yes.. I would get my money's worth...LMAO!!!!
Peace everyone!!!!
Friday, August 31, 2007
Inner Peace
By following simple advice heard on the Dr. Phil show, you too can find inner peace. Dr.Phil proclaimed,
"The way to achieve inner peace is to finish all the things you have started and have never finished."
So, I looked around my house to see all the things I started and hadn't finished, and before leaving the house this morning,
I finished off a bottle of Merlot,
a bottle of White Zinfandel,
a bottle of Bailey's,
a bottle of Kahlua,
a package of Oreos,
the remainder of my old Prozac prescription,
the rest of the cheesecake,
some Doritos and a box of chocolates.
You have NO idea how incredibly calm I feel.
Have a Great Weekend..
Peace!!!!!
"The way to achieve inner peace is to finish all the things you have started and have never finished."
So, I looked around my house to see all the things I started and hadn't finished, and before leaving the house this morning,
I finished off a bottle of Merlot,
a bottle of White Zinfandel,
a bottle of Bailey's,
a bottle of Kahlua,
a package of Oreos,
the remainder of my old Prozac prescription,
the rest of the cheesecake,
some Doritos and a box of chocolates.
You have NO idea how incredibly calm I feel.
Have a Great Weekend..
Peace!!!!!
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Insane Ramblings from a blonde
My work week is taking forever to be over with, it seems that it just keeps going and going and going and going. I swear it's Friday, and yet, it's only Thursday. Will the week ever end?
Yet, I am happy at the fact it's a 3 day weekend.. and then work one day next week, and I'm off to Oregon for a few days. So that will be nice & semi-relaxing.
The big dumb meat head (the dog) is currently 22 in the Nation.. YEAH HIM..
he needs a few more points to get to the Eukunuba show in Long Beach in December.. which I have complete faith in him.. and he will pull it off, and then we are off and running...
Bailey, the meat heads sister, finally went into heat, so she was bred last night... cross your fingers and toe's that it took. I was really worried that she wouldn't be receptive of Bear's attentions (the stud we bred her to) but holy wow.. did she like him near her rear end!!! She was waggin her tail, and putting her butt in his face.. he was all happy like.. licking her, and trying to body slam her into submission... he's a .. lets get it on, head to a dark corner and go go go go..
Bailey, is more of a lady, she wanted some foreplay.. and nice and slow.. sooooo.. when Bear tried to mount.. she wasn't quit ready as it was just a little to quick for her!!! So a little AI (artificial insemination) and hopefully we will have some puppies in 9-10 weeks!!!
Went camping this last weekend... Saturday night, I was walking down some stairs thought I was on the bottom one.. and Barney went flying.. and I wasn't even drunk.. that's the worse part, I had only had 1/2 a beer.. didn't spill a drop when I fell tho!!! :)
Sprained my right ankle.. and hyper-extended my knee.. finally went to the Dr on Tuesday.. only because my ankle was the size of a watermelon. I hate the Dr.s office.. I love my Dr... just hate going to the Dr. Anyhow, just a small amount of pain, but not to bad.
School starts in a few days, I'm happy, but I'm not.. I haven't even finished all the school shopping, so I guess were headed this weekend to finish what needs to be done.. Cha-Ching.. money money money.. I better win the damn Mega-Million Lotto.. I'm not greedy... I would be more than happy with a half a million!!!
The boy is in Football, I think this will be his new calling, he's really really into it. The last few years it had been baseball, which he still enjoys, but not as much at football. They started practice this last Monday, from 1-4... he pushed himself so hard on Tuesday that he made himself puke.. the coach was so proud of him.. kept tellin him what a good job he was doing, and it's good that hes' pushing himself that hard. Gets his pads and stuff today... had to be at the school at 9.. I was worried about getting there, but he and I had a long chat and decided he could ride his bike to school.
Now.. we live maybe 2 miles from school, down a hill, across a busy intersection, and then down a busy rural road, that has a very very small bike lane.
But you know, when I was around that age, I rode my bike everywhere (granted I was also smoking pot by his age) so I guess it is time, to let him start gaining a small small piece of independence.. (insert teary eyes here) my baby is growing up!!!
The girl, she joined cheer leading thru the youth football association.. they really push those girls, they range in age from 6 to 14. They run laps around the track, then practice for 2 hrs, 3x a week. Not to mention when they have to cheer for the games. The stupid cheer uniform, a tiny little skirt, and a shirt.. cost me $150!!! Can u believe that? Absolutely asinine!!!! But, she's really enjoying it, and her attitude is really changing, it's so weird to see her maturing right before my eyes! She is a big girl for her age... she is almost 11.. stands almost 5'4, and weights, just a little to much.. were working on that.. but.. she's a very strong little girl.. like her mother, she is freakishly strong.. so they have her on the bottom of the pyramids...
Its just weird, cuz I really hated the jocks and cheerleaders when I went to school.. when I actually showed up to school..
They were all stuck up, high society, snobs.. and it bothered me how they felt they were so much better than everyone else.. and now.. 20 yrs later.. I have a son who is a jock, and a daughter who is a cheerleader.. oh my, the higher powers that be, really have a wicked sense of humor!
Well, I guess that's about it, I just rambled on. I have a few more memories that I remembered that I will be posting this weekend. They come and go, the smallest things can make me remember something that was life changing, or just a damn good time. If you made it this far, congratulations.. brownie points to you!
Have a wicked Labor Day weekend!!!!
Yet, I am happy at the fact it's a 3 day weekend.. and then work one day next week, and I'm off to Oregon for a few days. So that will be nice & semi-relaxing.
The big dumb meat head (the dog) is currently 22 in the Nation.. YEAH HIM..
he needs a few more points to get to the Eukunuba show in Long Beach in December.. which I have complete faith in him.. and he will pull it off, and then we are off and running...
Bailey, the meat heads sister, finally went into heat, so she was bred last night... cross your fingers and toe's that it took. I was really worried that she wouldn't be receptive of Bear's attentions (the stud we bred her to) but holy wow.. did she like him near her rear end!!! She was waggin her tail, and putting her butt in his face.. he was all happy like.. licking her, and trying to body slam her into submission... he's a .. lets get it on, head to a dark corner and go go go go..
Bailey, is more of a lady, she wanted some foreplay.. and nice and slow.. sooooo.. when Bear tried to mount.. she wasn't quit ready as it was just a little to quick for her!!! So a little AI (artificial insemination) and hopefully we will have some puppies in 9-10 weeks!!!
Went camping this last weekend... Saturday night, I was walking down some stairs thought I was on the bottom one.. and Barney went flying.. and I wasn't even drunk.. that's the worse part, I had only had 1/2 a beer.. didn't spill a drop when I fell tho!!! :)
Sprained my right ankle.. and hyper-extended my knee.. finally went to the Dr on Tuesday.. only because my ankle was the size of a watermelon. I hate the Dr.s office.. I love my Dr... just hate going to the Dr. Anyhow, just a small amount of pain, but not to bad.
School starts in a few days, I'm happy, but I'm not.. I haven't even finished all the school shopping, so I guess were headed this weekend to finish what needs to be done.. Cha-Ching.. money money money.. I better win the damn Mega-Million Lotto.. I'm not greedy... I would be more than happy with a half a million!!!
The boy is in Football, I think this will be his new calling, he's really really into it. The last few years it had been baseball, which he still enjoys, but not as much at football. They started practice this last Monday, from 1-4... he pushed himself so hard on Tuesday that he made himself puke.. the coach was so proud of him.. kept tellin him what a good job he was doing, and it's good that hes' pushing himself that hard. Gets his pads and stuff today... had to be at the school at 9.. I was worried about getting there, but he and I had a long chat and decided he could ride his bike to school.
Now.. we live maybe 2 miles from school, down a hill, across a busy intersection, and then down a busy rural road, that has a very very small bike lane.
But you know, when I was around that age, I rode my bike everywhere (granted I was also smoking pot by his age) so I guess it is time, to let him start gaining a small small piece of independence.. (insert teary eyes here) my baby is growing up!!!
The girl, she joined cheer leading thru the youth football association.. they really push those girls, they range in age from 6 to 14. They run laps around the track, then practice for 2 hrs, 3x a week. Not to mention when they have to cheer for the games. The stupid cheer uniform, a tiny little skirt, and a shirt.. cost me $150!!! Can u believe that? Absolutely asinine!!!! But, she's really enjoying it, and her attitude is really changing, it's so weird to see her maturing right before my eyes! She is a big girl for her age... she is almost 11.. stands almost 5'4, and weights, just a little to much.. were working on that.. but.. she's a very strong little girl.. like her mother, she is freakishly strong.. so they have her on the bottom of the pyramids...
Its just weird, cuz I really hated the jocks and cheerleaders when I went to school.. when I actually showed up to school..
They were all stuck up, high society, snobs.. and it bothered me how they felt they were so much better than everyone else.. and now.. 20 yrs later.. I have a son who is a jock, and a daughter who is a cheerleader.. oh my, the higher powers that be, really have a wicked sense of humor!
Well, I guess that's about it, I just rambled on. I have a few more memories that I remembered that I will be posting this weekend. They come and go, the smallest things can make me remember something that was life changing, or just a damn good time. If you made it this far, congratulations.. brownie points to you!
Have a wicked Labor Day weekend!!!!
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
I was tagged!!!!
*What side of the heart do you draw first?
The Right side - cuz well I'm of the right mind.. right??
*Can you dive without plugging your nose?
yep
*What color is your phone?
my home phone is black, my cell is maroon
*Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
well here's a good question.. I don't rightly know.. is this just about having sex w/them.. to communicate with verbally.. or what...
*Where are you right now?
work.. oh joy..work work work
How do you feel about carrots?
I feel that they are misunderstood.. we as a nation need to stand up and embrace our orange little friends.. there not just for rabbits anymore!!!
*How many chairs at the dining room table?
none.. I just moved, bought the table, but didnt have enough cash to buy the chairs yet.. so..we eat at the coffee table.. no family dinners for this family
*Who is the best Spice Girl?
I could really care less.. I'm not a spice girl fan.. so um.. yeah.. not gonna even attempt to figure out who is the best.
*Do you know what time it is?
Time for you to obviously buy a damn watch..
*What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
dependant upon alone or with someone.. and who that someone is..
*What's your favorite kind of gum?
the kind you chew.. as of right now, I'm an orbit girl.. although.. I love trident too... and whats ever on sale!!!!
*T or F: All is fair in love and war?
is this a trick question? I'm pleading the 5th on this.. no answer...
mainly..I don't really believe in love at this point and moment in my life.. so.. yeah... no answer
*Do you use words that you don't know the meaning to?
no.. I don't like to make myself look like a fool.. but I make up a lot of my own words... I'm cool like that..
*Do you like to sleep?
I do.. but Im not one of those that can lay in bed all day.. my eyes pop open no matter what by 7am... drives me in sane!!!!
*Do you know which US states don't use Daylight Savings?
I know Arizona doesn't.. but I think there's one more.. I wanna say Idaho.. but I dont know if thats correct..
*Do you know the song Sugar We're Goin' Down?
umm....no.. but.. I love both sugar and goin down.. so.. sing it baby!!!!
*Do you want a bright yellow '06 mustang?
is it free? cuz Im all about free...
*What's something you've always wanted?
millions.. I want to be worry free of money.. meaning.. I want a ton of money!!
*Do you wear a lot of black?
I do...
*Describe your hair.
blond, mid back.. long.. I usually pull the sides up, cuz it's really thick..and heavy.. but I refuse to cut it..cuz I dont do change well... but I look pretty damn good when I take my time to actually do my hair!!!
*Are you an adult?
That's what Im told.. but.. I try not to act old.. although some days I really feel old
*Who is/are your best friends?
Sue is my BFF... she and I have been friends since we were 5.. amazing really... but I can tell her anything w/out her judging me.. but I have a few really close friends too
*Do you have a tan?
I actually do, which is amazing, cuz I hate to tan, and Im one white bitch when I dont!!!
*Are you a television addict?
addict is a little strong, but I do love to watch some good tv!!!
*Do you enjoy spending time with your mom?
I love my mom.. I really do.. but.. that women can also drive me insane!!! there is a reason why we live on two separate Oceans.. and we meet up twice a year... but we talk weekly on the phone..
*Are you a sugar freak?
yes and no.. there are certain times of the month I go on a sugar binge.. but.. only 4 days outta the month.. LOL
*What is your favorite movie?
I dont have a fav... movies..like music.. is a mood thing, it just all depends on my mood, but there are movies that I will watch over and over.. Hope Floats is a great one.. and I liked The Notebook..then again, I enjoy the Harry Potter series too.. and Talladaga Nights.. that was funny!!!!
*What's your sign?
um.. Bill Engvall hasnt given me a sign yet..
Libra
*Where do you wish you were right now?
anywhere but where Im currently at.. most would say a nice tropical warm place.. but.. in all honesty..I wanna go to Ireland..
*Who did you copy this from? Weekends..
*How do you know them? Blogger USA!!!!
*Would you have sex with them?
Well now thats' a little personal dont ya think.. I dont think it's any of your damn business.. jealousy will get you know where!!!
*What brand of shirt are you wearing?
a blue button up cotton tank, that I stole from my sister n law about 3 yrs ago.. I hate shopping.. hate it, hate it, hate it!!! Im not normal..I know.. but it depresses me.. between the prices, and people, and rude ass sales clerks.. I just hate shopping... plus, why do they seem to think that women with a little extra.. want to wear big fucking floral prints.. umm...HELLO.. clothing industry.. those fucking flowers strategically put right where my boobs are.. ARE NOT ATTRACTIVE!!! My ta-ta's are already big enough..I dont need some fucking ficus where my nipples are.. enough said!!!
*Have you ever smoked anything?
aaahhh.. the truth question.. yes.. I used to smoke pot, daily.. multiple times a day..
I used to smoke my pot rolled in meth.. a few times a day..
I used to smoke hash too, although that shit tasted nasty.. so I didnt smoke alot.. just when it was free and available.. and I needed something..
today.. Im still addicted to nicotine.. Im getting better.. but.. Ive beat everything else.. so.. I dont think it's that bad.. I mean, it's still bad.. but Im cutting back..Im down to 4 a day.. unless Im stressed.. and well then.. we wont go there...
Oh..that's all.. Im done? I was just gettin into this..
well..Im suppose to tag someone.. but what Im gonna do.. is leave it open..
if you wanna play.. well go for it.. its great for writers block.. (hint hint April & Mr. Beetle)
if not.. hope you enjoyed and thanks for stopping by..
Peace
The Right side - cuz well I'm of the right mind.. right??
*Can you dive without plugging your nose?
yep
*What color is your phone?
my home phone is black, my cell is maroon
*Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
well here's a good question.. I don't rightly know.. is this just about having sex w/them.. to communicate with verbally.. or what...
*Where are you right now?
work.. oh joy..work work work
How do you feel about carrots?
I feel that they are misunderstood.. we as a nation need to stand up and embrace our orange little friends.. there not just for rabbits anymore!!!
*How many chairs at the dining room table?
none.. I just moved, bought the table, but didnt have enough cash to buy the chairs yet.. so..we eat at the coffee table.. no family dinners for this family
*Who is the best Spice Girl?
I could really care less.. I'm not a spice girl fan.. so um.. yeah.. not gonna even attempt to figure out who is the best.
*Do you know what time it is?
Time for you to obviously buy a damn watch..
*What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
dependant upon alone or with someone.. and who that someone is..
*What's your favorite kind of gum?
the kind you chew.. as of right now, I'm an orbit girl.. although.. I love trident too... and whats ever on sale!!!!
*T or F: All is fair in love and war?
is this a trick question? I'm pleading the 5th on this.. no answer...
mainly..I don't really believe in love at this point and moment in my life.. so.. yeah... no answer
*Do you use words that you don't know the meaning to?
no.. I don't like to make myself look like a fool.. but I make up a lot of my own words... I'm cool like that..
*Do you like to sleep?
I do.. but Im not one of those that can lay in bed all day.. my eyes pop open no matter what by 7am... drives me in sane!!!!
*Do you know which US states don't use Daylight Savings?
I know Arizona doesn't.. but I think there's one more.. I wanna say Idaho.. but I dont know if thats correct..
*Do you know the song Sugar We're Goin' Down?
umm....no.. but.. I love both sugar and goin down.. so.. sing it baby!!!!
*Do you want a bright yellow '06 mustang?
is it free? cuz Im all about free...
*What's something you've always wanted?
millions.. I want to be worry free of money.. meaning.. I want a ton of money!!
*Do you wear a lot of black?
I do...
*Describe your hair.
blond, mid back.. long.. I usually pull the sides up, cuz it's really thick..and heavy.. but I refuse to cut it..cuz I dont do change well... but I look pretty damn good when I take my time to actually do my hair!!!
*Are you an adult?
That's what Im told.. but.. I try not to act old.. although some days I really feel old
*Who is/are your best friends?
Sue is my BFF... she and I have been friends since we were 5.. amazing really... but I can tell her anything w/out her judging me.. but I have a few really close friends too
*Do you have a tan?
I actually do, which is amazing, cuz I hate to tan, and Im one white bitch when I dont!!!
*Are you a television addict?
addict is a little strong, but I do love to watch some good tv!!!
*Do you enjoy spending time with your mom?
I love my mom.. I really do.. but.. that women can also drive me insane!!! there is a reason why we live on two separate Oceans.. and we meet up twice a year... but we talk weekly on the phone..
*Are you a sugar freak?
yes and no.. there are certain times of the month I go on a sugar binge.. but.. only 4 days outta the month.. LOL
*What is your favorite movie?
I dont have a fav... movies..like music.. is a mood thing, it just all depends on my mood, but there are movies that I will watch over and over.. Hope Floats is a great one.. and I liked The Notebook..then again, I enjoy the Harry Potter series too.. and Talladaga Nights.. that was funny!!!!
*What's your sign?
um.. Bill Engvall hasnt given me a sign yet..
Libra
*Where do you wish you were right now?
anywhere but where Im currently at.. most would say a nice tropical warm place.. but.. in all honesty..I wanna go to Ireland..
*Who did you copy this from? Weekends..
*How do you know them? Blogger USA!!!!
*Would you have sex with them?
Well now thats' a little personal dont ya think.. I dont think it's any of your damn business.. jealousy will get you know where!!!
*What brand of shirt are you wearing?
a blue button up cotton tank, that I stole from my sister n law about 3 yrs ago.. I hate shopping.. hate it, hate it, hate it!!! Im not normal..I know.. but it depresses me.. between the prices, and people, and rude ass sales clerks.. I just hate shopping... plus, why do they seem to think that women with a little extra.. want to wear big fucking floral prints.. umm...HELLO.. clothing industry.. those fucking flowers strategically put right where my boobs are.. ARE NOT ATTRACTIVE!!! My ta-ta's are already big enough..I dont need some fucking ficus where my nipples are.. enough said!!!
*Have you ever smoked anything?
aaahhh.. the truth question.. yes.. I used to smoke pot, daily.. multiple times a day..
I used to smoke my pot rolled in meth.. a few times a day..
I used to smoke hash too, although that shit tasted nasty.. so I didnt smoke alot.. just when it was free and available.. and I needed something..
today.. Im still addicted to nicotine.. Im getting better.. but.. Ive beat everything else.. so.. I dont think it's that bad.. I mean, it's still bad.. but Im cutting back..Im down to 4 a day.. unless Im stressed.. and well then.. we wont go there...
Oh..that's all.. Im done? I was just gettin into this..
well..Im suppose to tag someone.. but what Im gonna do.. is leave it open..
if you wanna play.. well go for it.. its great for writers block.. (hint hint April & Mr. Beetle)
if not.. hope you enjoyed and thanks for stopping by..
Peace
Thursday, August 16, 2007
HANG ON!!! Help is coming!!!!
This picture lightens my mood..
And just remember..
HANG ON...
Help is coming!!!!
In other news...
Here's a pic of the Do Wa.. the biker gathering I attend yearly...
Im in the picture.. can u find me?????
This was taken from the stage.. where the boobie contest was being held..
Where's Waldo??? I mean.. Where's Barney???
Im trying to push my way thru the mob to get to the front to stand next to the guy in the black cowboy hat.. whose working security infront of the stage...
Can u find me??? You cant can you.. it's ok...
I really dont wish to be found... haha...
Happy Thursday all!!!!
And just remember..
HANG ON...
Help is coming!!!!
In other news...
Here's a pic of the Do Wa.. the biker gathering I attend yearly...
Im in the picture.. can u find me?????
This was taken from the stage.. where the boobie contest was being held..
Where's Waldo??? I mean.. Where's Barney???
Im trying to push my way thru the mob to get to the front to stand next to the guy in the black cowboy hat.. whose working security infront of the stage...
Can u find me??? You cant can you.. it's ok...
I really dont wish to be found... haha...
Happy Thursday all!!!!
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
A rose by any other name.... is just a huge THORN
Nothing to really write about, the apartment is working out well, I didn't realize before moving in however how small the kitchen is. Or that there is no storage space, or the fact that I have way to much crap.
I'm finding things that I had forgotten all about, things from my childhood, or from my children's wee years on this earth. It's been fun to find lost treasure's and yet, it's been depressing at times too. Looking at old family photos' of when me and their fathers were together, the days prior to them turning into worthless turds. The memento's have to be kept for the wee ones, as much as I would love to tear them up and start a fire with them.. I wont.. I keep holding myself back.. and I wont.
Other than that, nothing.. absolutely nothing has been going on in my life. Sad really. I have found I'm so much more content to go home after work, relax w/a Corona or a nice glass of wine and just chill w/the wee one's talking, laughing, or watching some stupid show on the tube. Although w/school getting ready to start up here soon, those nights of going straight home will be ceasing soon.. the girl is in cheer leading.. practice 3x a week and the boy will be starting football soon.. practice every night after school not to mention both of them will have to be at games.
I guess I should suck it up now.. and enjoy it... cuz the days are coming when they wont want Mommy around, and they will be embarrassed by my existence. So.. I know, just cherish these memories, and blah blah blah...
I really need some extra curricular activities in my life too.. a little sheet action.. it's been to long.. sometimes it makes me think whats wrong w/me? Then I sit back and realize, that I got rid of all my "buddies" because a few of them turned into clingy little women.. and well I wasn't having any part of that!!! So.. I ditched them.. and well.. with today and all the freaks out there I just haven't gone an dug up anymore.. I do still have one, but he and I work such opposite schedules, and there is the distance thing it's hard to get together with him... but everyone cross your fingers and pray that this Friday.. I will get some much needed exercise.. LOL!!!
OK.. I'm out..
Peace
I'm finding things that I had forgotten all about, things from my childhood, or from my children's wee years on this earth. It's been fun to find lost treasure's and yet, it's been depressing at times too. Looking at old family photos' of when me and their fathers were together, the days prior to them turning into worthless turds. The memento's have to be kept for the wee ones, as much as I would love to tear them up and start a fire with them.. I wont.. I keep holding myself back.. and I wont.
Other than that, nothing.. absolutely nothing has been going on in my life. Sad really. I have found I'm so much more content to go home after work, relax w/a Corona or a nice glass of wine and just chill w/the wee one's talking, laughing, or watching some stupid show on the tube. Although w/school getting ready to start up here soon, those nights of going straight home will be ceasing soon.. the girl is in cheer leading.. practice 3x a week and the boy will be starting football soon.. practice every night after school not to mention both of them will have to be at games.
I guess I should suck it up now.. and enjoy it... cuz the days are coming when they wont want Mommy around, and they will be embarrassed by my existence. So.. I know, just cherish these memories, and blah blah blah...
I really need some extra curricular activities in my life too.. a little sheet action.. it's been to long.. sometimes it makes me think whats wrong w/me? Then I sit back and realize, that I got rid of all my "buddies" because a few of them turned into clingy little women.. and well I wasn't having any part of that!!! So.. I ditched them.. and well.. with today and all the freaks out there I just haven't gone an dug up anymore.. I do still have one, but he and I work such opposite schedules, and there is the distance thing it's hard to get together with him... but everyone cross your fingers and pray that this Friday.. I will get some much needed exercise.. LOL!!!
OK.. I'm out..
Peace
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
I be moved!!!
Hi ya'll...
The move went well, I never did realize how much shit I owned. No major causalities.. well except for my concussion.. but other than that... ok ok..
the story behind the concussion..
My ex packed the storage unit.. and he's just a great guy that he packed it so freaking badly that the stuff was just thrown into it... anyhow.. the door to the storage unit got stuck half way up, and came off the tracks, so I had to get the maintenance people to come and fix that.. then.. when I was moving things out, I grabbed a couch cushion that was stuffed up towards the top of the roof started wiggling it back and forth to pull it down, and well my ex had put a picture frame up there... and the frame came down and smacked me right in the forehead...
I have a lovely goose egg and bruise, and the glass from the frame went everywhere...
Anyhow.. other than that, I broke all my finger nails...
and I'm bruised from the top of my body, to the souls of my feet..
But I'M MOVED!!!!
Things are starting to look good at home, the apartment is nice and roomy...
I'm getting things put away... have just a few boxes to go thru, but they are boxes of baby items.. either the wee children's, or stuff from my childhood..
Thank you to everyone for your well wishes.. now I have to go and do some work, because even tho I had 2 back ups while I was gone.. I have over 1000+ emails to dig thru, and issues that only the customers feel I can help with..
I guess it's good to be liked in your job!!!
I will get to your blogs soon..
TTYL
Peace!!!
The move went well, I never did realize how much shit I owned. No major causalities.. well except for my concussion.. but other than that... ok ok..
the story behind the concussion..
My ex packed the storage unit.. and he's just a great guy that he packed it so freaking badly that the stuff was just thrown into it... anyhow.. the door to the storage unit got stuck half way up, and came off the tracks, so I had to get the maintenance people to come and fix that.. then.. when I was moving things out, I grabbed a couch cushion that was stuffed up towards the top of the roof started wiggling it back and forth to pull it down, and well my ex had put a picture frame up there... and the frame came down and smacked me right in the forehead...
I have a lovely goose egg and bruise, and the glass from the frame went everywhere...
Anyhow.. other than that, I broke all my finger nails...
and I'm bruised from the top of my body, to the souls of my feet..
But I'M MOVED!!!!
Things are starting to look good at home, the apartment is nice and roomy...
I'm getting things put away... have just a few boxes to go thru, but they are boxes of baby items.. either the wee children's, or stuff from my childhood..
Thank you to everyone for your well wishes.. now I have to go and do some work, because even tho I had 2 back ups while I was gone.. I have over 1000+ emails to dig thru, and issues that only the customers feel I can help with..
I guess it's good to be liked in your job!!!
I will get to your blogs soon..
TTYL
Peace!!!
Friday, July 27, 2007
Im outta here..just like that!!!
Ok everyone..
Moving day is just around the corner.. less than 48 hrs..
Im both excited and nervous..
but.. I know out of all 4 of my readers, you can understand both...
and if you do.. please explain the nerves.. anyhow..
Im off work all next week, and I havnt gotten the puter hooked up at home yet.
not sure exactly when either, it's kind of an un-warranted expense right now.
But.. I will check in sometime next week.
Take care.. thanks for all the words of insight & wisdom & silliness.
and ttyl!!!!
Peace!!!
Moving day is just around the corner.. less than 48 hrs..
Im both excited and nervous..
but.. I know out of all 4 of my readers, you can understand both...
and if you do.. please explain the nerves.. anyhow..
Im off work all next week, and I havnt gotten the puter hooked up at home yet.
not sure exactly when either, it's kind of an un-warranted expense right now.
But.. I will check in sometime next week.
Take care.. thanks for all the words of insight & wisdom & silliness.
and ttyl!!!!
Peace!!!
Thursday, July 26, 2007
5 Random Questions...
I had requested AR (Amourous Rocker, sorry I cant figure out how to link people.. Im just not that smart!) to hit me up w/5 questions.. and oh boy did she!!! Thank you for the questions, they really made me dig a little deeper into myself..
So.. here they are.. and here I go..
Interview rules:
1. What is your happiest memory so far this year?
My happiest memory this year, there have been so many.. but most of them are trivial. then again, how can they be trivial if they made me happy? To pick one particular memory doesn't do justice to the others. So how can I choose just one? My kids I guess make me the happiest. Watching them succeed at things that they find difficult. So, I'm going to pick watching my son not step out of the batters box, and actually connecting w/that ball and hitting deep left field to make a home run. That was extremely exciting. Then the next (as they both run parrell) is watching my daughter do her first dance recital in front of 500 people. Two of my most fondest memories this year!
2. What are you addicted to?
I currently have two nasty vices. Smoking & coffee, although is coffee really a nasty vice? The smoking is slowly cutting down, but after all my other addictions in life that I have over come, I think I'm doing pretty damn good. I gave up meth, acid & pot, which were three of my most favorite forms of entertainment back when I was a teenager. But, I can honestly say that I have been clean and sober off the drugs now for hmmm... almost 15 yrs.. is that right, has it been truly that long.. ooohhh..YEAH ME!!! (sorry, just had to pat myself on the back there)
3. If you could take 2 personality traits you posses and change them in for 2 different traits, what would you change and why?
My Anger - I wish I could take my anger and turn it into serenity/contentment. I have dealt with anger issues since I was a just a wee one. As I grew older I would have black outs and hurt either myself, someone else, or break things. I went thru anger management when I was around 14, due to some home life issues and I did learn self-control. But there are days when I can feel the anger swirling inside of me. It takes everything I have to control myself. One of these days I'm so afraid of just snapping and letting loose. But, I haven't done that now in years (last time I ended up in juvi) every day is a new day and I keeping thanking the higher powers that be for that control.
Im really having a hard time w/the second trait, cuz it makes me realize who I truly am. So many things come to mind, my bitchiness, my self esteem, my bitterness...oooh.. that's the one.. my bitterness. Im a bitter person towards people who screw with me and whats mine. I wish I could take that bitterness and turn it into indifference. To allow it to be like water on a ducks back, just let it roll right off me and disappear. But I hold grudges to those to do me wrong or hurt my loves. I tend to get even one way or another, actually, I really do believe in Karma.. and I know some day, they will get theirs, and I have seen them get theirs, but I shouldnt be so ecstatic when it does happen.. Im evil.. I need to really find that happy medium!
4. You have free and unlimited access for 3 days to a private jet and money isn't an object, where are you going?
1) Sweden - My mother's family is originally from Sweden, they came over in the 1800s and settled in MN, my Great-Grandmother was disowned when my Great-Grandfather passed away. The story goes, that when he passed away, it was the way of the old, that if there was an unmarried brother, then he was to take over the family care of the one who was deceased. Well when my Great Uncle came to take my Great Grandmother home, she basically told him to go um.. well F himself .. so she was disowned along w/her 2 children... so I have a ton of family there and I would love to go and meet them
2) Egypt - my son is infatuated with the Pharaohs and Egypt and the tombs and temples. I think it would be an awesome trip to go explore all the ruins.
3) Money not being an object, I would like to travel the U.S. and attempt to help the homeless youth. From my own experiences I want to attempt in some form or fashion to help the youth to get off the streets, off the drugs and help them become successful in life.
5. What are 3 of the most important things to you in life currently?
1) My family - they are the world to me, w/out my children and my family I wouldn't be here.
2) My dog - I love that jumping little flea.. my daughter rescued her from an abusive home.. I feel a kinship w/the dog, she was an outcast and now she's loved and wanted.. I love animals more than most people..
3) My blogger buddies - I look forward every morning for the silliness, words of wisdom & insight. I feel that w/out the land of blogger so many people would be lost and would end up holding in what should be let out. So many would end up pulling the rifle out on top of the local Dairy Queen and taking pop shots at the double dipped chocolate cones that walk out the swinging doors. That's just not acceptable, we as a society really need to leave the double dipped chocolate cones alone..
So.. here they are.. and here I go..
Interview rules:
- Leave me a comment saying “Interview me next" or "Hit me with your best shot" or something along those lines letting me know you're down to be questioned. :D
- I’ll respond by commenting back on your blog with your five questions. I get to pick the questions.
- You will then update your blog with a post containing your the answers to the questions.
You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.
1. What is your happiest memory so far this year?
My happiest memory this year, there have been so many.. but most of them are trivial. then again, how can they be trivial if they made me happy? To pick one particular memory doesn't do justice to the others. So how can I choose just one? My kids I guess make me the happiest. Watching them succeed at things that they find difficult. So, I'm going to pick watching my son not step out of the batters box, and actually connecting w/that ball and hitting deep left field to make a home run. That was extremely exciting. Then the next (as they both run parrell) is watching my daughter do her first dance recital in front of 500 people. Two of my most fondest memories this year!
2. What are you addicted to?
I currently have two nasty vices. Smoking & coffee, although is coffee really a nasty vice? The smoking is slowly cutting down, but after all my other addictions in life that I have over come, I think I'm doing pretty damn good. I gave up meth, acid & pot, which were three of my most favorite forms of entertainment back when I was a teenager. But, I can honestly say that I have been clean and sober off the drugs now for hmmm... almost 15 yrs.. is that right, has it been truly that long.. ooohhh..YEAH ME!!! (sorry, just had to pat myself on the back there)
3. If you could take 2 personality traits you posses and change them in for 2 different traits, what would you change and why?
My Anger - I wish I could take my anger and turn it into serenity/contentment. I have dealt with anger issues since I was a just a wee one. As I grew older I would have black outs and hurt either myself, someone else, or break things. I went thru anger management when I was around 14, due to some home life issues and I did learn self-control. But there are days when I can feel the anger swirling inside of me. It takes everything I have to control myself. One of these days I'm so afraid of just snapping and letting loose. But, I haven't done that now in years (last time I ended up in juvi) every day is a new day and I keeping thanking the higher powers that be for that control.
Im really having a hard time w/the second trait, cuz it makes me realize who I truly am. So many things come to mind, my bitchiness, my self esteem, my bitterness...oooh.. that's the one.. my bitterness. Im a bitter person towards people who screw with me and whats mine. I wish I could take that bitterness and turn it into indifference. To allow it to be like water on a ducks back, just let it roll right off me and disappear. But I hold grudges to those to do me wrong or hurt my loves. I tend to get even one way or another, actually, I really do believe in Karma.. and I know some day, they will get theirs, and I have seen them get theirs, but I shouldnt be so ecstatic when it does happen.. Im evil.. I need to really find that happy medium!
4. You have free and unlimited access for 3 days to a private jet and money isn't an object, where are you going?
1) Sweden - My mother's family is originally from Sweden, they came over in the 1800s and settled in MN, my Great-Grandmother was disowned when my Great-Grandfather passed away. The story goes, that when he passed away, it was the way of the old, that if there was an unmarried brother, then he was to take over the family care of the one who was deceased. Well when my Great Uncle came to take my Great Grandmother home, she basically told him to go um.. well F himself .. so she was disowned along w/her 2 children... so I have a ton of family there and I would love to go and meet them
2) Egypt - my son is infatuated with the Pharaohs and Egypt and the tombs and temples. I think it would be an awesome trip to go explore all the ruins.
3) Money not being an object, I would like to travel the U.S. and attempt to help the homeless youth. From my own experiences I want to attempt in some form or fashion to help the youth to get off the streets, off the drugs and help them become successful in life.
5. What are 3 of the most important things to you in life currently?
1) My family - they are the world to me, w/out my children and my family I wouldn't be here.
2) My dog - I love that jumping little flea.. my daughter rescued her from an abusive home.. I feel a kinship w/the dog, she was an outcast and now she's loved and wanted.. I love animals more than most people..
3) My blogger buddies - I look forward every morning for the silliness, words of wisdom & insight. I feel that w/out the land of blogger so many people would be lost and would end up holding in what should be let out. So many would end up pulling the rifle out on top of the local Dairy Queen and taking pop shots at the double dipped chocolate cones that walk out the swinging doors. That's just not acceptable, we as a society really need to leave the double dipped chocolate cones alone..
Monday, July 23, 2007
Monday Madness..
I got these from Weekends.. I picked last weeks' cuz I liked the questions better than this weeks.. I may do this weeks too.. but I dont know.. Im flighty like that.. so there....
1. Do you feel that children these days are disciplined enough?
No, I feel that kids now days have no respect for their elders, no respect or common courtesy for those around them. They seem to expect their parents to bend over backwards and hand them what ever they want on a silver platter. For example... my son came home last year, and asked me if I even loved him... "where is this coming from"
Well turns out, a kid at school told him that I didnt love him because I wouldnt buy him anything he wanted, that kid's parents bought him whatever he wanted.
My son asked him when was the last time him and his parent sat down to a family dinner and just talked, about the day, school issues, the news going on in the world.
To which the kid replied, I dont talk to my parents... the work all the time.
My point exactly, to many parents have demanding jobs, leaving their kids as latch key children, or just leaving them alone. Trust me I get the demands of the job I get all that.. but you do NOT buy your kid whatever they want.. it's just a way to shut them up, and to clear your conscious...
ok.. soap box..
2. What are your thoughts about the "time out chair?"
I think it works to a point, but after awhile, what's the big deal about time outs? Depending on the crime, depends on the punishment. For small children, I would say up to maybe 2nd grade, the time out chair is effective.. but after that.. it would be dependable against the crime.
3. When YOU were a child, what form of discipline did your parents use most often?
Ha!!! When I was younger, there was very little punishment for me, I was a good wee child.. then again I was raised with the fear of God. He would spite me, and if I wasnt careful he would knock me down. As I got older, grade school I would say.. it was the image of the wooden spoon that terrified me. Thankfully it was never used on my ass.. but I had seen it's mark left upon my brother a time or two..
As I got older, and I become more problematic.. it was belt buckles on bare ass, willow switches that I had to pick from the tree,hairbrushes that didnt brake, spatulas, sometimes whatever was in reach of my father when he felt that I needed a good "smack".... once or twice it was a slap from a hand.. and I believe there was a fist once too..
4. Did your parents have to constantly remind you of the guidelines they set for you, or did they just have to LOOK at you as a "gentle" reminder?
No... it was well ingrained into us children you treat your elders w/respect, and you use ALL your manners around others, yes please, no thank you, yes sir, no sir, yes ma'am, no ma'am. whatever the case may be, I was a very polite child, even when I was doing drugs and strung out.. I still used my manner.. I think that's the one thing all that church going did for me..
5. What are your thoughts about screaming kids in public places?
It depends.. really it does.. if you just told the kid no.. and it starts screaming.. well pick it up and go outside.. dont walk around the damn store letting the kid throw a fit.. holy hell..no one else wants to hear it.. duh!!!! How many times I have left a cart sitting in the middle of a walk way and just walked out of a store because my daughter decided to throw a fit??? Gawd Im so glad her wee years are over.. now.. I will just leave her there :)
If the kid has fallen out the back of a shopping cart because of parental neglect.. then.. throw the parent down and let them hit their head and see how it feels..
oh wait, I got off topic...sorry..
Take the kid either outside, or into a restroom.. calm them down.. again..no one wants to hear it... babies are different, anything under the age of a yr old.. that doesnt count.. but over that.. you can talk to them.. and get them to calm down..
6. What do you feel is the BIGGEST mistake parents make when it comes to disciplining children?
Ignoring what is going on.. I did that for years w/my son.. until he was almost 4.. I figured he did no wrong.. and as he got older it got worse. It took 2 yrs of me constantly on his ass, all the time, day or night to get things turned around.. little did I realize I was making things worse by not doing anything.. OMG.. he was a holy terror..
He's 13 now, people are amazed at how well mannered he is, well behaved, polite, kind blah blah blah.. Im proud of both he and I.. we came along way.
Same thing w/my daughter.. but I think that's the biggest problem.. there is no discipline in society.. I truly believe there is nothing wrong w/a good swat on the ass.. Society has taken discipline away from the schools... taken it virtually away from the parents... so now we have all these kids out there that have no respect for anything.. not for whats around them, whose around them not even for themselves.
What the hell kind of world are we giving to our kids?
1. Do you feel that children these days are disciplined enough?
No, I feel that kids now days have no respect for their elders, no respect or common courtesy for those around them. They seem to expect their parents to bend over backwards and hand them what ever they want on a silver platter. For example... my son came home last year, and asked me if I even loved him... "where is this coming from"
Well turns out, a kid at school told him that I didnt love him because I wouldnt buy him anything he wanted, that kid's parents bought him whatever he wanted.
My son asked him when was the last time him and his parent sat down to a family dinner and just talked, about the day, school issues, the news going on in the world.
To which the kid replied, I dont talk to my parents... the work all the time.
My point exactly, to many parents have demanding jobs, leaving their kids as latch key children, or just leaving them alone. Trust me I get the demands of the job I get all that.. but you do NOT buy your kid whatever they want.. it's just a way to shut them up, and to clear your conscious...
ok.. soap box..
2. What are your thoughts about the "time out chair?"
I think it works to a point, but after awhile, what's the big deal about time outs? Depending on the crime, depends on the punishment. For small children, I would say up to maybe 2nd grade, the time out chair is effective.. but after that.. it would be dependable against the crime.
3. When YOU were a child, what form of discipline did your parents use most often?
Ha!!! When I was younger, there was very little punishment for me, I was a good wee child.. then again I was raised with the fear of God. He would spite me, and if I wasnt careful he would knock me down. As I got older, grade school I would say.. it was the image of the wooden spoon that terrified me. Thankfully it was never used on my ass.. but I had seen it's mark left upon my brother a time or two..
As I got older, and I become more problematic.. it was belt buckles on bare ass, willow switches that I had to pick from the tree,hairbrushes that didnt brake, spatulas, sometimes whatever was in reach of my father when he felt that I needed a good "smack".... once or twice it was a slap from a hand.. and I believe there was a fist once too..
4. Did your parents have to constantly remind you of the guidelines they set for you, or did they just have to LOOK at you as a "gentle" reminder?
No... it was well ingrained into us children you treat your elders w/respect, and you use ALL your manners around others, yes please, no thank you, yes sir, no sir, yes ma'am, no ma'am. whatever the case may be, I was a very polite child, even when I was doing drugs and strung out.. I still used my manner.. I think that's the one thing all that church going did for me..
5. What are your thoughts about screaming kids in public places?
It depends.. really it does.. if you just told the kid no.. and it starts screaming.. well pick it up and go outside.. dont walk around the damn store letting the kid throw a fit.. holy hell..no one else wants to hear it.. duh!!!! How many times I have left a cart sitting in the middle of a walk way and just walked out of a store because my daughter decided to throw a fit??? Gawd Im so glad her wee years are over.. now.. I will just leave her there :)
If the kid has fallen out the back of a shopping cart because of parental neglect.. then.. throw the parent down and let them hit their head and see how it feels..
oh wait, I got off topic...sorry..
Take the kid either outside, or into a restroom.. calm them down.. again..no one wants to hear it... babies are different, anything under the age of a yr old.. that doesnt count.. but over that.. you can talk to them.. and get them to calm down..
6. What do you feel is the BIGGEST mistake parents make when it comes to disciplining children?
Ignoring what is going on.. I did that for years w/my son.. until he was almost 4.. I figured he did no wrong.. and as he got older it got worse. It took 2 yrs of me constantly on his ass, all the time, day or night to get things turned around.. little did I realize I was making things worse by not doing anything.. OMG.. he was a holy terror..
He's 13 now, people are amazed at how well mannered he is, well behaved, polite, kind blah blah blah.. Im proud of both he and I.. we came along way.
Same thing w/my daughter.. but I think that's the biggest problem.. there is no discipline in society.. I truly believe there is nothing wrong w/a good swat on the ass.. Society has taken discipline away from the schools... taken it virtually away from the parents... so now we have all these kids out there that have no respect for anything.. not for whats around them, whose around them not even for themselves.
What the hell kind of world are we giving to our kids?
Thursday, July 19, 2007
Tumbeling tumble weeds
I have been living w/family for the last year. It's been a hectic, stressful home life for me and my wee ones. However Im happy to report that I finally have decided that my bills are paid enough to take the plunge into a single home life w/just me and them.
So as of tomorrow at 4:30 PST, I will have signed my life away for a 3 bedroom/2 bath, 1212 sq ft apartment. $400 more a month than a pay now, but.. it will be mine.. and I will be able to do as I please. Have friends over for dinner and drinks, allowed to lay on my couch and watch what I please. If I find it necessary I can run the house in my t-shirt and shorts and not wear my bra!
Oh the freedom that I will have once again!!!
Moving in w/family met dual roles. Helping both of us out of some finicial situations. But a time comes when one must fly away.. and I thank my family for all they have done not just for me, but for the wee-ones too.
Time to spread my wings, get my life out of a 10x10 storage unit and lay in my own bed! It will be like Christmas.. only in July, as I havnt seen most of my things in over a year. To be surrounded by MY things. My couch, my bed, my dishes, my pictures, mine mine mine mine mine!!!! Yep.. ALL MINE!!!
I will be taking the last week of July off.. 7/30-8/3.. to unpack, put away, throw away and relax when I can.. to become one w/my new surroundings.. and be happy happy happy.. Im truly hoping this will help w/that red hue of anger that is always on the out skirts of my mind.
Peace
So as of tomorrow at 4:30 PST, I will have signed my life away for a 3 bedroom/2 bath, 1212 sq ft apartment. $400 more a month than a pay now, but.. it will be mine.. and I will be able to do as I please. Have friends over for dinner and drinks, allowed to lay on my couch and watch what I please. If I find it necessary I can run the house in my t-shirt and shorts and not wear my bra!
Oh the freedom that I will have once again!!!
Moving in w/family met dual roles. Helping both of us out of some finicial situations. But a time comes when one must fly away.. and I thank my family for all they have done not just for me, but for the wee-ones too.
Time to spread my wings, get my life out of a 10x10 storage unit and lay in my own bed! It will be like Christmas.. only in July, as I havnt seen most of my things in over a year. To be surrounded by MY things. My couch, my bed, my dishes, my pictures, mine mine mine mine mine!!!! Yep.. ALL MINE!!!
I will be taking the last week of July off.. 7/30-8/3.. to unpack, put away, throw away and relax when I can.. to become one w/my new surroundings.. and be happy happy happy.. Im truly hoping this will help w/that red hue of anger that is always on the out skirts of my mind.
Peace
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Do Wa Diddy.. Diddy dum diddy do!!! Adult Content!!!
Good Day all..
There be the girls.. that's them in all their fine glory.. that would be the night before the do wa... when they were still clean, and un marked.. cuz you see.. when the Do Wa hit's.. the sharpie pens and mardi-gras beads come out.. and well.. I eneded up w/20 signatures this year.. I even de-virginized a couple guys w/sharpie tittie signing.. 101!!! hahahaha..
ok.. so be nice w/your comments.. remember.. everyone has to PLAY NICE!!!!
Do Wa updates coming at you..
I apologize, as I havnt downloaded any pictures.. there was alot of jello shots going thru the weekend.. I started my day off at 10 am, w/a nice shot of jello, followed by a tall cup of Bacardi & coke.. it's my favorite drink!!!
I would say a little over 1100 bikers and their friends showed up. I do believe a good time was had by all... many many pictures were taken, I think I even vaguely remember my face squished between two set's of breast's.... w/my tongue sticking out.. haha.. I love boobs!!! And Im female!!!
Other than that... there were no issues, never usually is, which in it's self is kind of amazing when you get that many people together, all drinking and you get different types of "groups" together.
We raised almost $400 for the wet t-shirt contest.. My dad is the MC for that tittie contest, he is the biggest perv I have ever met, yet he does it in such a tastful way.. that's my Daddy.. and I love him :) I got to work security during the tittie contest, stand at the base of the stage and push people back when they get to close.. One of the other guys working w/me, yelled at me to turn around during the show.. and I turned, and there was a cooch right in my face.. that was a little more than I bargained for.. LOL.. he laughed and laughed.. thought that was hilarious...haha.. yeah.. not so much.. I love boobs.. but Im not really into other womens cooch.. call me weird.. but.. not my thing.. another gal got up to dance, and she decided that she needed to strip too.. until this stench went thru the wind.. OMG!!! I yelled up at her to wash that thing, it smelled vile... like rotten fish... sweat...mildew.. Im gagging just thinking about it.. blah!!!!
Anyhow.. some guy attatched himself to my hip.. he was a cutie, drunker than anything, and a little psycho.. I loved him.. he was freaking hilarious... he even sucked on my nipple.. hehe.. I get a little crazy at these things... he had friends who made a spody (sp?) damn..it was nummers... I drank that, ate the fruit.. and drank some more..
I think I finally got to sleep around 3:30 that morning.. I know more happened.. but.. Im sorry to say, I was I N T O X I C A T E D!!! and bit's and pieces are slamming back into my head at odd hours.. haha..
As more memories come crashing in.. and pictures come available.. I shall update..
Peace
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