1st entry

Well, this would be my first entry into the screwed up world I live in.

Some days I wonder what in the hell am I thinking? Did God really give me a brain, or is this some cruel joke? What, he had nothing better to do than to f*** w/me? Um..Hello God? Are you out there somewhere, I mean, you gotta be right? You created all this beauty around us, gave me 2 of the most beautiful creations in the world, yet you give me all this shit that Im just not sure I can handle. What were you thinking????

Ok Ok, you are only handed as much as you can deal with right? Well, Im at my whits end, so does this mean that something has got to go my way sooner or later right?

Yeah right, it seems that more and more and more and more and more just keeps getting passed onto my platter.. well.. um.. hello.. the freakin platter is full and is about to break into 4 million small shards that are going to be imbedded in the carpet and then someone is going to walk across it and their gonna get cut! So my words to you.... STOP ALREADY!!!!

My friend once described me as being emotionally flatlined, I sat down and seriously thought about that and came to the conclusion that Im not.. I mean I can be, I can be the most coldest cruelest bitch you ever met, as long as you dont mean anything to me, but on the other hand, I think I would give you my last $10 if you really needed it (of course you better pay me back)
then again, I love what is mine, I care for what is mine and I do have feelings damn it!!!

Ok..enough for now.. I will maybe write more later...