Step up onto my Soap Box

I do apologize for not checking in sooner, but life has been a jumble of confusion and mass irritability.

Bear w/me, as I jump up on my Soap Box & poor me attitude.... ok.. here it goes..
Im a single mother of 2 beautiful children... 12 & 9.. Im 33 yrs old, and have a hell of a time making ends meet. I work fulltime, which actually averages out to about 55 hrs a week, and do my best to show my children about honor, honesty, hard work, achievments, good decisions, so forth and so on. I make pretty good money.. I mean, not alot, but Im doing alright, and I dont recieve child support, as their fathers are ignorant/self centered/assholes..

With that said, I work and work and work to provide a home for my children to teach them right from wrong and to stand on their own two feet, so why is it, that I cant get any type of additional assistance from the state governmant. I pay into it, every payday, money is removed from my check to support those lazy ass individuals who depends on the state of Washington to support them. Yet, I cant get alittle additional help w/medical costs or food allowance. Im not saying that I deserve it, but I am saying, that yeah, I could use an extra $100 a month for food...
there are certain individuals (that will remain nameless) that sit at home, do nothing, watch soap operas, game show's, and Jerry Springer, just waiting for the beginning of the month to roll around so they can go out and shop. Yeah.. pisses me right the hell off! I cant get any assistance, as I sit here and watch my power bill raise due to winter, gas prices being astronomical, car maintence, food, car payment, house payment, ect ect ect.. yeah I know.. shut up V.. and just deal w/it.. thats life, you learn to live w/it, and then you leave the earth and carry on...

I was on welfare when my son was first born, back in 1994... I was still working, but just didnt make enough to support me and my son, Im telling you it was the most embarrassing thing in my entire life, back when food stamps were actual paper money.. before they put it on the credit cards that they have to day. But I remember the sneers, jokes, and disgusted looks that I recieved at the grocery store paying for my food, I recall paying for groceries, when a girl asked her mother what I was using to pay for my food, her mothers reply, "those paper dollars are for lazy people who wont get off their asses and work" Now, wait a minute!!! Um.. I was still working, my hours were cut down due to the time of year, I was living w/friends, but still had to pay my own way... so, needless to say, my mild/meek self just couldnt let it slide.
I turned, I looked Bertha up and down, and I ripped her a new ass... Have you ever walked a mile in my shoes? Do you have any clue WHY I may be needing assistance from the state? Do you even know a PIECE of my story? NO! you dont, so do not EVER pass judgment upon someone else until you know the real story, the history and they WHY's!!! So Fuck you very much! Buh bye now!!!

I know.. Im kind of contradiciting myself in this post.. however... I totally understand being on state assistance because of necessity sickness/disability(as long as its legite disability) family issues, no education, the real reasons... necessity.. because you HAVE to.. not because u want to.. I get all that..Im talking the ones who are just to selfish and/or lazy that will not get a job to do better for themselves.. those are the ones that piss me off..

Ok Ok.. big Soap Box..
Take care..

Peace