Monday, December 19, 2005

Goodbye my dear friend

I post today with a saddened & heavy heart today

My puppy was hit and killed by a car this morning, just as I came around the corner to try to stop him. He was 9 months old, had not had a chance to live long enough on this earth to know what its like to run in the surf of the ocean, to chase a squirrel in the woods, to camp in the woods w/me and the kids.

Thankfully he went quickly.

I pulled him off the road, and to the side, fell to my knees, he lifted his head, looked at me and licked my hand, and then went into the powers that be.

I will forever remember him. He was not only the family dog for a few short months, but he was my friend. He was my 55 pound lap dog, who loved to sit in the recliner w/me on my lap, loved to sleep next to me in bed, as long as he had half the pillow, loved to go for car rides, loved to be just loved. He was there for me to talk to, knowing all my secrets would forever be a secret, he loved to bounce around the house and play tug of war w/the old dish towel. He loved his bones, I constantly was stepping on half eaten dog bones hidden in shoes, hidding in the kid's bed's, hidden under pillows on the couch.. everywhere..
I will be reminded of you over the next few weeks as I clean up your bed, and remove your favorite toys. I will forever miss you and will forever love you.

The gentleman that hit him, thank you for stopping and thank you for your assitance and kind words. I do not lay blame on you, you are not at fault. Oscar wanted to play with the dog across the busy street, unfortunently, your wheels were quicker than his legs.

To you my dear friend... Thank you for the few months we had together...

God Bless Our Pets

They say memories are golden,
well, maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories,I only wanted you.
A million times I needed you,a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you,you never would have died.
In life I loved you dearly,in death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place no one could ever fill.
If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,
I'd walk the path to heaven and bring you back again.

Rainbow Bridge
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers.
Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again.
The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...


Danielle said...

oh my god
I am sitting at my desk crying
I am so sorry

I am really sorry. If there is anything I can do, please let me know. My mother hit a dog in her car a few years ago and it took her years to get over. I am so sorry.

It is better that he didn't suffer. Suffering is horrible. I am so sorry, I don't know what else to say. I am really sorry. I am so sorry. My heart is with you, I know how it feels to lose a dog but he was an old dog and this lil guy, oh I just hope he is playing running around up in heaven somwehere, not to sound nuts. I am a HUGE animal lover and I am so sorry for your loss.

Danielle said...

Hang on to this stuff gurl, his bed, dont throw it away, it will always remind you of him. Once you have went thru the pain as I have with my dog who died, maybe youll get another one, I did. But it takes time, I couldnt even think about a new dog when mine had passed. Hang in there. He licke dyour hand because he knew you were good to him. I am sorry gurl.

steph said...

I couldn't imagine.

Sounds like he was a great dog...

Hang in there : )

Video X said...

oh no. so sad...terribly sorry about your puppy!

Just Some Gal said...

I'm so sorry babe... I don't know any sage words because your post said so much.

Lots of big Texas hugs,


normiekins said...

i am sssssssooooo sssssoooooorrryy to hear about Oscar ***tears**** that is horrible!...he looked at you and licked your hand to tell you he loved you! I am sure you are time you will look back on your memories of him and heart aches with you......hang in there!

honkeie2 said...

Its so sad when one of the happiest creatures on this earth has to leave soo early. Sorry for your loss. ((((hugs))))

Barney said...

Thank you everyone for you kind words and your thoughts for me.

Im still raw, I called for him at least twice last night to take him for his walk, and this morning, I went to feed and water him, and then realized he isnt there.

For the few short months that we had him he was already a HUGE part of the family.

Thank you...

Danielle said...

I know and understand. I am sorry. I pray this gets easier for you with the coming days. He loved you. He will always be a part of you and please know, accidents happen, they suck but they happen. I'm sorry gurl.

LeaLea said...

I am so sorry- I'm also a dog owner and know how much we can love our pets.. (sometimes moreso than PEOPLE in the world! :) Sending you big hugs and sympathy- it is not easy to lose someone we love this way..

Cherry said...

Aw, Barney, I am so sorry. I think the hardest thing in this life next to loosing a person is a pet. Our pets are our family.

All I can do is tell you my thoughts are with you and my heart goes out to you.

I really do believe that beautiful poem The Rainbow Bridge. I believe your puppy is waiting for you.

Biggest hugs to you!!!

Barney said...

Thank you... I cant say thank you enough and tell you how all of your support really means to me.

But the tears still wont dry up, my poor co-workers.. they are just now bypassing my cube, and leaving me alone.. which is totally understandable.. as Im a hysterical mess...but have to work to keep my mind occupied..

The hardest was last night, when I went to bed and he wasnt there to fight over my pillow...
Even tho he was a Pit Bull, he was all love and hugs..

thanks again everyone... it is the hardest to loose an animal over some humans.

Danielle said...

Barney - I hope you make it thru the day. Hang in there gurl. Take care of you. {{{HUGS}}}}

Southern Fried Girl said...

Oh gosh, darlin. So don't know what to say. I found you via Danielle. I am a LUNATIC about my pets (one insane dog and three fat and sassy cats) and can't imagine literally watching that. God love ya darlin. I will say a prayer for you.

Danielle said...

Hey Gurl,
I been thining about you all day. I remember when my dog died I was so lost I didn't know what to do with myself and reading this is bringing that feeling back. I feel for you, I know it hurts. I am so sorry. I hope you are ok or atleast I hope the pain eases up.

Barney said...

I miss him so much... it just makes me tear up when I think about him not being there to do his Tigger bounce through the house when I walk thru the door at night.

It definently is a vision that I cant get out of my head, but Im trying to erase that and just concentrate on the happy times. He was only with us for a few short months, he was a rescued animal who was abused, so Im glad at least that he had a happy home for the short time he was on this earth. He was loved.. and I just hope and pray that he knew that.

Thank you for the kind words, one never realizes how much a pet means to them until they are taking away before their time.

Ms Peculiar said...

Barney, I am so sorry about your puppy. There is nothing that I feel that I can say to comfort you.
I am just sorry about it all.

Danielle said...

check your e-mail
*thinking of you*

Danielle said...

I am leaving for the day and dont have computer access at home. I hope you are okay. Stay strong. I will catch up with you tomorrow, latest Friday.