It's sad, when you sit back and start analyzing your life.... Im 35 yrs old.. and I feel like I have accomplished none of the things in life that I would of like to of accomplished by now.
Yet, I have overcome so much in my life, that in a sense, I have over come so much.
I kicked drugs...
I finished school..
Got off the streets...
Have a great job (even if Im not impressed w/it at the moment)
I have 2 beautiful children.. when I was told at 16 that I would never carry a child to term
So why is it, that I am so unhappy with my situation?
2/8/08 - Im going to a Bi-gathering at a alternative lifestyle home. Hell, Im not sure exactly what you wanna call it. However, Im really excited.. oh oh.. it's a swinger party gathering place. I guess that's what you call it. So anyhow, this Friday they are having new couples night.. but I found out to late, so Im unable to attend.. but on the 8th, it's Bi female night.. and since that's what I want to explore.. Im going!!!!! I just hope that guys are invited too.. cuz Im NOT going by myself. Besides...I think he would get a total kick outta watching a couple girls go at each other.. LOL - and I think it would be a turn on, having him watch me and someone else playing around with each other.. cuz well that's the type of thing he's into..
That damn man is a drug.. I swear, I have tried and tried to brk it off w/him.
But, something draws me back to him. I dont know what exactly it is.. but something just keeps me coming back for more... the sex is FABULOUS.. but there's other things too.. I dont know... because I probably really should move on.. but he is helping me to explore things that I really am curious about.. then again.. I could end up in a shit load of trouble too..
gotta think on that...
And that's all I got..